The quiet man continues to frustrate me. He protestations of love clash with the inconsistency of his commitment. I’m sure he believes but, as I continue to push him away, I’m sure his thinking shall become clear in his mind. This distant affair cannot continue, its neither normal (whatever that means) nor feasible.
And tomorrow, at 1pm, I meet another potential lover. One for vetting rather than action, for the time being at least. As with past lovers he must prove himself not only worthy of the task but capable of stimulation of other sorts. I detest boredom. Sexual boredom is the domain of a long time married wife, intellectual boredom is a soul sapping, tortuous matter and one I am unwilling to accept. Yeah, you can have a great fuck with a stunning and expert companion but what do you talk about in between?
This question brings me back to the point in hand - what do you do with someone who you care about but who continues to be distant in every imaginable way?
2008-06-19 @ 16:32